I tell you there was a LONG road to get here.. It took much PAIN, HEARTACHE, and STRUGGLE to make it to this point.. I am trying to live my life in the most positive light I can. You all might not know but I had some DARK days in my life.. I am so good at fronting and hinding my TRUE feelings.. I started to noitce I could no longer hide pain anymore..
One day I was reading a blog that Verbal Art wrote (April).. I was already at the stage of I am living for me now.. 2009 and 2010 taught me alot about people you let into your life.. See that NEGATIVE stuff never been me. So when I was allowing all those negative vibes fill into my personal space.. I too became a TOXIC person. I am still NOT perfect.. I’m still working at some more of my issues…
I lost my happy go lucky, free spirit, outgoing self… Once I realize what it was doing to my health, my mind, and my soul.. I took ENOUGH… I ended up taking time to myself.. I shut down.. I mean I really shut down.. I found out what the TRIGGER was.. I was a weak body person.. I let my physical being take over my mental.. I never felt that a MAN was the key to happiness.. I did though feel what he had would be.. So I let body tell me what made me happy.. Well I know now.. I don’t need all that.. I wanted to be accepted by people.. It seems that people think more of you if you are in a relationship.. I tell those people now.. Yall can kiss my butt.. LOL
So anyhoo.. I found out what I wanted in life.. I found out that I didn’t need all that STRESS.. My happiness came to me one morning.. I said.. Thank you Jesus for allowing me to see another day.. You know. Right now I could be dead.. I been so close to it… I watched friends and family LOOSE thier life before that could even live theirs.. Well not me.. I am NOT going to be that person..
My happiness is me LIVING my LIFE for me.. I am now PICKING the BEST PEOPLE possible to come into my world.. See when you surround yourself with POSITIVE PEOPLE, GOAL ORINIETED PEOPLE.. The OUTCOME is oh so WONDERFUL.. I am now back into writing.. I hope to publish my stories in the next 5 years… I also put away all my fears… I will no longer live for others… I will no longer worry about those who don’t even care enough about THEMSELVES…
I am spreading Happiness… I am spreading my Joy… I learned how to LOVE myself ENOUGH to keep it moving.. I LEARNED to know that LOVING YOURSELF gives you a better feeling than any other person could.. It will ALSO bring people that WILL TRULY LOVE you in the process….
This is my key to Happiness… What is yours?
